35 hours

until i'll be with you.

i gotta break free.

i just can't fail forever.

some day i will set it straight

taking chances to make things happen

for myself, no one else but me.

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i am anxious.

i don't like it.

i have so much on my mind.

i need someone to talk to.

fucking birds.

i hate birds.

i just hate them, real live ones at least.

drawings, photographs, images of any nature of birds infatuate me though.

its bizarre.

i mean, i have a peacock on my arm, i can't hate them that much.

i saw this image and wanted it impulsively on my body.

im a strange person.

CHANGE

09.

best.

i wish i could see H2O every day of my life.

i have a presentation in 20 minutes. fuck.

i want to go to the gym today. i need to start getting my shit together.

i keep telling myself this, but i fail at it.

current to dos:

start going to the gym between 7 and 4 times a week.

acquire a bicycle.

acquire blackberry storm

set time aside to actually do my interior design work, instead of rushing before deadlines.

spend atleast an hour a week in the library researching something of interest.

stop spending money.

better myself.

give to others more, stop caring about my material needs as much.

get on a regular sleep cycle.

josh is at the beach this week.

hopefully i'll get my car and go down on friday, if that falls through does anyone/was anyone planning on going down friday night or saturday? If so, could i possibly catch a ride?

free pushing on and averman show this weekend. thats worth it.

i have to go to class now. 

farewell.

evan novak never made me pancakes

yesterday ruled.

work 10-2, that was weak.

the new pumpkin spice smoothie is my new favorite. forever.

came home, chilled, worked on my project for class. fuckkkkkk, its due tomorrow and i have bane tonight. :/ womp womp.

evan picked my up on his way home from work. did josh's laundry, made pancakes, ate candy and watched hockey. lots of hilarious moments of course. WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!?

i did not sleep well at all last night.

i was expecting to after i got the balls to drink all the disgusting thera-flu :[

h2o and bane tonight. im pretty sure i'm going? things have been ironed out 100%.

but i know i have to get this in design shit done. oh marvelous.

sometimes

you just need a little time to yourself.

even though i'm longing to be with you, i know its better we're apart.

i just remembered how i hate sleeping alone.