tense.

i need to unwind.
i need to not feel so stressed and uptight.
i can't help it, and i can't seem to pinpoint the cause.
i need a massage, and alone time with my boyfriend.

oh, and

new years plans?

never enough

i'll never be as important or mean as much.

christmas re-cap

i haven't had my computer in days, otherwise i wouldve posted this sooner.

-panera gift card
-starbucks gift card
-visa gift card
-movie theater gift card
-a new cartigan
-a new sweater
-a photo album of my life so far
-socks
-$$$
-and my mom bought a wii for her house, which does not benefit me at all, since i don't live there.

i'm so exhausted.
i need to catch up on my sleep.

pushing on and junkyard dogs with the mongoloids tonight in VB.
should be fun.
i have to go finish getting ready before i get josh and we head out.
l8r

i'm

ready for holiday festivities.

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i'm stoked on life.

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i wish

i still looked like a babe...

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today, work was super slow.

i probably only made 20 or 30 smoothies, if that, and one sandwich.

After consuming the one sandwich i made, the customer came up and informated me i make "a bangin' good sandwhich"

that just made my day.

you need a hug.

maybe you should work for "sick of it all"
or get a job with the l.a.p.d.
did someone switch your ritalin with ephedrine?
Just don't take your fucking problems out on me.

I'd buy you a little fuzzy bunny
I'd put you on my x-mas card list
if you'd promise not to take your job so seriously
and realize you don't have to be so pissed.

life ain't all that bad. life ain't all that bad.
even if henry rollins is your dad.
life ain't all that bad. life ain't all that bad.
buck up little camper, don't be sad.

maybe you could go hunting with ted nugent
and see how many animals you could kill.
I'd pay all of my friends just to hang out with you
and take you out to sizzler for a meal.

I'd take you to my favorite karoke bar
and you sing "let the sunshine in".
you could stomp my ass into oblivion
but that doesn't mean I'll put up with your shit.

you not being here

isn't helping anything at all... 

it puts us back at square one every time.

if only we could actually start over.

"for one day

i wish everyone could say everything they want to say."

annoyed.

i'm home alone.

i'm cold.

i'm hungry.

i'm miserable.

every year at this time i swear i get like this.

i hate seasonal depression.

i really want to go to my mom's and be comforted.

my mom rules, and can make me feel better no matter what.

i haven't seen her in awhile.

i think that's all i need right now.

this week

has been insane.

i'm still trying to process everything that has happened.

currently i'm in the pollak building getting ready for my studio critique. 

i've been trying to wake josh up for over an hour now, he won't get up, sorry babe.

last night ruled:

free bread bowls

buying groceries with money that wasn't mine

free soup

apples to apples

good company

after 2pm today, i am done with class for the semester.

i'm more than stoked.

wish list

i know i will not get any of the following for christmas, but hey its my wish list.

-Nikon D80, fish eye lense

-80 gig iPod

-Navy blue pea coat

-North Face Greta TriClimate Jacket in pink

-Levi's skinny 531's

-a puppy ( in progress)

-tattooooooooos

-pastel set of Chartpak Ad Markers

-the peatcoat/bit of blue Vans authentic Lo Pro's

-a memory foam pillow top matress topper

-inspirational books.

-a macbook pro battery

-cartigans

-any seasons of the Office on DVD

-gift cards

-AND THIS http://www.johnnycupcakes.com/design/988/NauticalWindbreakerGirls

.

believe nothing you hear.

ever.

crunchies.

i

miss you.

<3