fear.

i have a splitting head ache.

some frat boy tools were banging on my windows earlier.

i guess ethan threw trash at them, idk whats going on really.

took care of kage, hes trashed.

made the kids pb&j, just pb for chris.

im hella scared.

my chest is getting heavy.

and my hearts pounding.

my head feels like its going to explode.

i need to relax.

i need to stop being paranoid and just let things happen.

i talked a lot about the ex today :/.

i did not like that one bit.

i need to breathe in and let go.

i guess i've just been thinking a lot about what happened then.

i don't want that repeat, thats one thing i know for sure.

i can't sleep.

i keep trying to, but theres noise from the street; drunken screams, laughing, stumbling.

tomorrow night it will be much easier to sleep.

you'll finally be here rubbing my back until i finally drift off.

i'm the only one sleeping alone tonight.

i'm always the one sleeping alone, always.